Big Latch On Jacksonville 2016

This was my second year photographing the Big Latch On at Bay & Bee! Such a fun event at a seriously awesome location!

Jen from Jax Beach Breastfeeding Support Group hosts the event. If you're local to Jax and a nursing mother you should check out their meetings! Their regular meetings are the 1st Wednesday of every month at Palms Presbyterian Church in Jax Beach, and the 3rd Tuesday's at Bay&Bee!

"Breastfeeding reminds us of the 1universal truth of abundance; the more we give out, the more we are filled up, and that divine nourishment - the source from which we all draw - is, like a mother's breast, ever full and ever flowing.” ~Sarah Buckley

Leaving the Rat Race | Project 365 {Days 163-187} | St. Augustine Photographer

THIS IS PROJECT 365.

I photograph life as it unfolds, and share too much with you, every day, for 365 days.

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Here's a little secret - between my husband and I - we make substantially more money then the vast majority of humans on this planet. We have all of our needs met and then some. (Edit for clarification: we make substantially more money then the near 100 million people who make less than $2/day, not Americans)

I am beyond fortunate that there are people who see beauty in my work and are willing and able to pay for it, thus making me able to pay my portion of the bills with my art; but I did not choose this path for the money.

My family lives very minimally. We moved to a small two bedroom apartment. We sold our second car and paid off all of our small debts. We cut our budget so small that we're able to live happily and comfortably on an incredibly small amount of money. We left reliable and steady jobs to pursue our passions.  We did this ON PURPOSE - so we could be free. We hated the rat race, so we finally took steps to remove ourselves from the hamster wheel. It's a process, and we're far from perfect,  but we've stopped playing into the idea that we always need more, bigger, better, faster to be successful or productive members of society. 

I do not desire a large house with glittering upgrades and extra rooms. I do not desire fancy cars or the newest technology and gadgets. Those things aren't inherently bad, but they simply are not what motivate me. 

I've gone on this rant before, but it's such a reoccurring theme in my field of work that I can't help but go here again. Everyone likes to cheer one another on "Raise your prices!!". The classic line "if you don't value yourself no one will". UGH. Drives me insane! To me it seems like people just throw it around as a cliche and don't REALLY stop to listen to  what they are saying. 

I value myself. I value my work. I love my work. However I do not derive my value based on money and material possessions. I do not think a photographers prices can 'devalue' our field, because I do not think our arts true value is monetary, at least not for me. 

I value beauty. I value life. I value humans. I value being outside. I arguably value chocolate, orange soda and red wine. I value art. 

In my work, in my art, I find my motivation through my values, and I try to use that motivation to bring light and attention them. Values like family, relationships, life, strength, vulnerability, transparency - not money, and not worldly successes. 

I started photographing births because I love birth. The births of my children were among the most surreal moments of my life. I'm amazed beyond words at what my body was able to do. I am in love with the emotion that envelopes all births, the whole process absolutely fascinates me. And to that end I think it's a beautiful thing when a women is able to have visual reminder of her birth. It's a beautiful that we live in a time where a woman is able to look back on her birth and not only see her strength, but see the love that surrounded her. She can see her husbands reaction when she was likely too focused on her baby to really soak it in in that moment. She can see the details that are usually lost in the cloud of emotion that is birth. I believe there are clients out there who DO value and love our art, but just because they value it does not magically make them have thousands of dollars of disposable income. I think birth is such a sacred event, not something to be exploited in the pursuit of riches. I think most birth photographers get into this field for similar reasons as I, but when I see photographers excitedly cheering on their peers in raising prices to $5,000/ birth I cannot help but worry that our field has lost their way. When questioned birth photographers are quick to point to wedding photography pricing, but do we really want birth to become anything like the stressed out consumerism that has become weddings? I don't. Not for my clients, not for myself, and not for my children. 

 

Day 163: April 24, 2016


Day 164: April 25, 2016


Day 165 : April 26, 2016


Day 166: April 27, 2016


Day 167: April 28, 2016 (iPhone)

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Day 168: April 29,2016


Day 168: April 30, 2016


Day 169: May 01, 2016


Day 170: May 02, 2016 (iphone)

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Day 171: May 03, 2016


Day 172: May 04, 2016


Day 173: May 05, 2016


Day 174: May 06, 2016


Day 175: May 07, 2016


Day 176: May 08, 2016


Day 177: May 09, 2016


Day 178: May 10, 2016


Day 179: May 11, 2016 (iphone)

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Day 180: May 12, 2016 (iphone)

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Day 181: May 13, 2016


Day 182: May 14, 2016


Day 183: May 15, 2016


Day 184: May 16, 2016


Day 185: May 17, 2016

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Day 186: May 18, 2016

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Day 187: May  19, 2016

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Comparison | Project 365 {Days 131-162} | St. Augustine Photographer

Comparison is a bitch.

I've been in the photography world for a little over two years now- which in and of itself blows my mind. 

Many days I will look back at all of the things I have learned a long the way and I am really proud of how much I have learned. Still very much aware that much room for growth still exists- but proud of the progress all the same. 

Then, somehow, I started noticing what other photographers were doing. How much they were growing. And I felt my heart explode a little (ok - a lot). 

It's easy to look around and be jealous that many of my peers appear to be growing faster then I am, both artistically and business wise. When I do that I start to feel like crap. Then my ego creeps in, and not in a good way. I start getting jealous and thinking about how I can do bigger or better. That is not the person I want to be. That is not the 'motivation' I want to have.

I have been very specific in growing my business. I have made plenty of mistakes - but from day one I have wanted my brand to be real, raw and representative of me. I have turned down weddings, on multiple occasions, fully aware that weddings are where the money is in photography. When I start feeling defeated I tend to think "I'll start taking weddings on". But weddings are not something I'm passionate about in the slightest (I eloped at 37 weeks pregnant in a bright red dress with 48 hours of planning and zero guests - I am so not the wedding girl). On the flip side I have been shamelessly honest about my struggles with life and motherhood and being an imperfect mess. 

And that imperfect mess of a mother has built this business on imperfect conditions. I spent the first two years working from a computer with a failing hard drive. I cannot count the amount of times it would blue screen mid edit. I had to teach myself everything I've learned with multiple small children surrounding me at all times and on less than impressive equipment. I didn't have a schedule or support system in place that let me practice by myself - ever - I had to use stolen time while with my children. 

I'm not always fully booked, but I do get regular and consistent business. My work may not have me traveling the globe or purchasing a huge house. But my work has brought women together. It's helped encourage moms to feel comfortable feeding their children. It's started friendships. It's helped moms know they aren't alone in their struggles with postpartum depression and anxiety. And it may not be earth shattering, but to me, that is so much more fulfilling then a full bank account. 

And I'm putting this in writing so that next time I get caught up in that which does not matter - I have something to bring me back down to earth. 

I have gone against the grain at many phases of this journey - and it's been glorious. And I will continue to pursue what I believe is beautiful.


Day 131 : March 24, 2016

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Day 132: March 25, 2016

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Day 133: March 26, 2016

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Day 134: March 27, 2016

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Day 135 : March 28, 2016

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Day 136 : March 29, 2016

I was pre-occupied about getting published on Scary Mommy and SELF magazine all in one day, so I dropped the ball - here is a screen shot from my cell that day

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Day 137 : March 30, 2016

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Day 138 : March 31, 2016

Because I am a perfectionist and dropped the ball twice before I considered throwing in the towel and didn't take a picture this day. I'm glad I got over that and kept on with the project. Here is another cell shot.

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Day 139: April 01, 2016

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Day 140: April 02, 2016

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Day 141: April 03, 2016

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Day 142: April 04, 2016

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Day 143: April 05, 2016

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Day 144:  April 06, 2016

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Day 145: April 07, 2016

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Day 146 : April 08, 2016

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Day 147 : April 09, 2016

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Day 148 : April 10, 2016

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Day 149: April 11, 2016

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Day 150 : April 12, 2016

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Day 151: April 13, 2016

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Day 152: April 14, 2016

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Day 153: April 15, 2016

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Day 154: April 16, 2016

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Day 155: April 17, 2016

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Day 156: April 18, 2016

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Day 157: April 19, 2016

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Day 158: April 20, 2016


Day 159: April 21, 2016


Day 160: April 22, 2016

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Day 161: April 23, 2016

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Day 162: April 24, 2016

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